Ian Watson, fourth from left, back row, April 1942. Almost half these men died during the war.
By Catherine Watson
THROUGH one of those accidents of the internet, I recently stumbled across a photograph of my uncle Ian in training for the Royal New Zealand Air Force, taken a year before he went missing in action. I recognised him immediately. The Watson men all have that same dreamy look, ill suited to ordinary life, let alone war.
I found the photo disconcerting. He is my uncle, born almost 40 years before I was, but is young enough to be my great-nephew now. It's hard not to feel protective of him.
Ian and his brother Hugh shared a birth day and a death day. Hugh died on June 29, 1942, aged 32. Ian died exactly a year later, aged 24. I knew almost nothing about them.
THROUGH one of those accidents of the internet, I recently stumbled across a photograph of my uncle Ian in training for the Royal New Zealand Air Force, taken a year before he went missing in action. I recognised him immediately. The Watson men all have that same dreamy look, ill suited to ordinary life, let alone war.
I found the photo disconcerting. He is my uncle, born almost 40 years before I was, but is young enough to be my great-nephew now. It's hard not to feel protective of him.
Ian and his brother Hugh shared a birth day and a death day. Hugh died on June 29, 1942, aged 32. Ian died exactly a year later, aged 24. I knew almost nothing about them.
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The Anzac Day juggernaut, and the interest in war and soldiering, is a recent phenomenon. My father, the youngest of the family, never talked about his dead brothers and as children we were never interested enough to ask.
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This essay was first published on April 20, 2013. This slightly updated version is published by special request of Carolyn Landon who reckoned it's pertinent in our troubled times. |
Finding Ian’s photo prompted me to write to the New Zealand Defence Force archives for my uncles’ records. I expected a couple of sheets of paper but received two folders of files recording their last few months on earth. While they were in Europe, North America and North Africa, every move they made – every little accident, every time they went AWOL, every new pair of socks – was meticulously noted across the world in Wellington, their home town. You can almost see the coffee cup rings and cigarette burns of the army clerks entering the details.
The coloured photocopy files are curiously intimate. I can trace Ian’s and Hugh’s handwriting from the application forms. I learn that Hugh had only one year at high school, that he was a postman when he enlisted, his sports were tennis and golf, his smoking habit was “moderate” and he did not drink alcohol.
There are copious files relating to his initial training in New Zealand, then he is posted to Canada in May 1941 for further training. In 1943, his file is marked “Missing Presumed Dead”. In 1947, two years after the war ended, the Air Force wrote to his mother to say the aircraft he was navigating had crashed into the North Sea off Borkum, an island off north-western Germany, on June 29 1942. Three crew were saved and captured by the Germans. One body was washed up at Borkum and buried there. The other three bodies – including Hugh’s – were not found.
Ian was called up for duty in April 1942. He was 23 years and 170 days, five feet 10 and a half inches tall, weighed 148 pounds and had dark brown hair, hazel eyes and a dark complexion. “Growing pains” is listed under previous ailments. He had had four years of secondary schooling and worked as a clerk in the army, his religion was Presbyterian and he listed his sports as rugby, tennis, hockey, soccer, golf and badminton.
In training, he scored 16 out of 32 on a night blindness test, which doesn’t augur well for a future air bomber, and was listed as “an average type”. He, too, went to Canada for further training. Shortly after arriving, on October 15, the aircraft in which he was training crash landed when an engine failed. The aircraft caught fire and was destroyed but he suffered only "a small laceration on my forehad".
In May 1943 he was posted to No. 70 Squadron in the Western Desert of North Africa. Late on June 28, he set off for his second mission, an attack on Messina, Italy. His file notes: “In due course, as no further news was heard of the aircraft or crew, it was assumed that Flight Sergeant Watson lost his life at sea without trace, on the 29th of June, 1943.” His presumed “burial place” is the Mediterranean.
The coloured photocopy files are curiously intimate. I can trace Ian’s and Hugh’s handwriting from the application forms. I learn that Hugh had only one year at high school, that he was a postman when he enlisted, his sports were tennis and golf, his smoking habit was “moderate” and he did not drink alcohol.
There are copious files relating to his initial training in New Zealand, then he is posted to Canada in May 1941 for further training. In 1943, his file is marked “Missing Presumed Dead”. In 1947, two years after the war ended, the Air Force wrote to his mother to say the aircraft he was navigating had crashed into the North Sea off Borkum, an island off north-western Germany, on June 29 1942. Three crew were saved and captured by the Germans. One body was washed up at Borkum and buried there. The other three bodies – including Hugh’s – were not found.
Ian was called up for duty in April 1942. He was 23 years and 170 days, five feet 10 and a half inches tall, weighed 148 pounds and had dark brown hair, hazel eyes and a dark complexion. “Growing pains” is listed under previous ailments. He had had four years of secondary schooling and worked as a clerk in the army, his religion was Presbyterian and he listed his sports as rugby, tennis, hockey, soccer, golf and badminton.
In training, he scored 16 out of 32 on a night blindness test, which doesn’t augur well for a future air bomber, and was listed as “an average type”. He, too, went to Canada for further training. Shortly after arriving, on October 15, the aircraft in which he was training crash landed when an engine failed. The aircraft caught fire and was destroyed but he suffered only "a small laceration on my forehad".
In May 1943 he was posted to No. 70 Squadron in the Western Desert of North Africa. Late on June 28, he set off for his second mission, an attack on Messina, Italy. His file notes: “In due course, as no further news was heard of the aircraft or crew, it was assumed that Flight Sergeant Watson lost his life at sea without trace, on the 29th of June, 1943.” His presumed “burial place” is the Mediterranean.
That’s what we know. Then there are all the things we don’t know. As Ian left for his second mission, did he remember that Hugh had died a year earlier? Did he feel a premonition? Did the crew die before their plane hit the water or was there time for terror as they went down in the darkness? Did they die in the crash or did they escape the wreckage and drown?
They are things that don’t bear thinking about and yet not to think about them is to abandon my young uncle to his fate once again.
And the other painful questions – how did my grandmother cope with the weeks and months of waiting for news of her missing sons, the hope against hope that they had survived?
The first death was hard but how did she survive the second one, a year later? As a child, I was terrified of this tall, stately woman and her solitary clifftop house, filled with photographs of people who had died. Now I realise it was the shadow of her grief that frightened me.
She was to lose a third son to war but fortunately was not alive to see it. My father, Don, spent 1946-47 in Japan as part of the occupation forces, stationed not far from Hiroshima, where the first nuclear bomb had been dropped. He survived the war but – like many members of the occupation forces – did not make old bones. He died at 55 of a mysterious cancer.
It would be difficult to find a family unmarked by the sorrow of war. To this day, old men send young men into battle. Of course we blame the politicians and industrialists who manufacture wars for their own purposes, but perhaps we're not wholly innocent. My mother recalls my grandmother once reflecting on her sons’ deaths. “It’s just as well Hugh died,” she said. “He was engaged to a Catholic girl.”
Once Catholics hated Protestants, and vice versa. Australians hated Germans or English or Italians or Koreans, then we hated the Russians and Chinese, then the Vietnamese. Now some Australians hate Muslims, or fear them, while others hate Jews. We can be persuaded to hate so easily.
They are things that don’t bear thinking about and yet not to think about them is to abandon my young uncle to his fate once again.
And the other painful questions – how did my grandmother cope with the weeks and months of waiting for news of her missing sons, the hope against hope that they had survived?
The first death was hard but how did she survive the second one, a year later? As a child, I was terrified of this tall, stately woman and her solitary clifftop house, filled with photographs of people who had died. Now I realise it was the shadow of her grief that frightened me.
She was to lose a third son to war but fortunately was not alive to see it. My father, Don, spent 1946-47 in Japan as part of the occupation forces, stationed not far from Hiroshima, where the first nuclear bomb had been dropped. He survived the war but – like many members of the occupation forces – did not make old bones. He died at 55 of a mysterious cancer.
It would be difficult to find a family unmarked by the sorrow of war. To this day, old men send young men into battle. Of course we blame the politicians and industrialists who manufacture wars for their own purposes, but perhaps we're not wholly innocent. My mother recalls my grandmother once reflecting on her sons’ deaths. “It’s just as well Hugh died,” she said. “He was engaged to a Catholic girl.”
Once Catholics hated Protestants, and vice versa. Australians hated Germans or English or Italians or Koreans, then we hated the Russians and Chinese, then the Vietnamese. Now some Australians hate Muslims, or fear them, while others hate Jews. We can be persuaded to hate so easily.
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When I look around my neighbours and good friends in a single Wonthaggi street I'm reminded of the futility of war.
During World War Two, Vilya’s German mother was imprisoned in Bergenbelsen for anti-Nazi activities. Martin’s English father was captured in North Africa by the Italians and spent much of the war in a German prison of war camp. Frank’s and John's Italian father was conscripted by the Mussolini government to work for the German army. One of my uncles died on a bombing raid to Germany; another uncle on a bombing raid to Italy.
Yet 80 years after our fathers and uncles did their best to kill one another, here we all are, our lives woven together by friendship and many shared beliefs, not least that we are blessed to live in a beautiful, bountiful place far from the horrors of war and poverty.
During World War Two, Vilya’s German mother was imprisoned in Bergenbelsen for anti-Nazi activities. Martin’s English father was captured in North Africa by the Italians and spent much of the war in a German prison of war camp. Frank’s and John's Italian father was conscripted by the Mussolini government to work for the German army. One of my uncles died on a bombing raid to Germany; another uncle on a bombing raid to Italy.
Yet 80 years after our fathers and uncles did their best to kill one another, here we all are, our lives woven together by friendship and many shared beliefs, not least that we are blessed to live in a beautiful, bountiful place far from the horrors of war and poverty.